DVESHA
2.8 (Dukha Anushayi Dvesha)
Aversion
(dvesha) is a modification that results from misery associated with some
memory, whereby the three modifications of aversion, pain, and the memory of
the object or experience are then associated with one another.
- dukha = pain, sorrow, suffering
- anushayi = sequential attraction to, closely following, secondary accompaniment, resting on
- dvesha = aversion or pushing away, hatred
Aversion is a form of attachment: Aversion is actually
another form of attachment. It is what we are trying to mentally
push away, but that pushing away is also a form of connection, just as much as attachment is
a way of pulling towards us.
Aversion is a natural part of the mind: Dvesha actually seems
to be a natural part of the universal process, as we build a precarious mental
balance between the many attractions and the many aversions.
Aversion is both surface and subtle: It is important to remember that aversion can
be very subtle, and that this subtlety will be revealed with deeper meditation.
However, it is also quite visible on the more surface level as well. It is
here, on the surface that we can begin the process of witnessing our aversions.
Aversion can be easier to notice than attachment: In relation to individual thought
patterns, aversion is one of the two colorings that is most
easily seen, along with attachment. Actually, aversion can
be easier to notice than attachment, in that there is often an emotional
response, such as anger, irritation, or anxiety.
Such
an emotional response may be mild or strong. Because of these kinds of
responses, which animate through the sensations of the physical body, this
aspect of witnessing can be very easily done right in the
middle of daily life, along with meditation time.
Aversion
is nothing but negative attachment. The sequence of aversion is the second wave
exactly as explained in RAAGA post. Out of some experience with someone, with
some object, you get a bad/ not so good experience and the memory of such
experience results in the second wave of hatred/ aversion towards such persons/
objects in future.
Practical exercise
Never
mind our desires, there are also plenty of things we don’t want…
“I
don’t want to be rushed”
“I
don’t want to eat this…do that…see him/her…”
Dvesha
can also be interpreted as an avoidance of something, or feeling of dislike
towards something. The ego is usually involved in this choice.
For
instance…When we are challenged out of our comfort zone by a pose in our
practice, we may encounter this sensation of dislike. Uncomfortable as it may
be, sometimes a lesson lies in taking that step that takes out to a new ground,
out of your comfort zone… It’s a great opportunity for growth.
Here
is something to think about:
Ø If you usually WANT
to challenge yourself, what would it feel like to take a step back?
Ø If you usually DON’T
WANT to challenge yourself, what would happen if you did?
“We
perceive as good that which brings pleasure; we perceive as bad that which
brings pain”
To
step out of a state of aversion is to step out of your ego’s comfort zone.
Being pushed around by the ego (I want, I don’t want) is a vicious, never
ending cycle, which creates suffering.
You
are in power of breaking the cycle. Identify one habit, and change it. You will
come to see that your True identity is not defined by your likes and dislikes.
Love.
